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Not sure, pretty sure the worst is over though, so it's uphill from here. I'll probably be perfectly dandy in a couple weeks; such is the nature of bipolar disorder. I have a support system to get me through the worst parts.

Not the first psych I've tried, and I'm changing my drugs up a bit at the moment, added one while I was in the hospital. My counselor is good, and I like my current psych. I'm getting good care atm, which definitely helps.

No suicide attempts but heavy ideation and some forms of moving toward it (I don't want to go into detail). And yeah, I think I'm just dissociated a bit, which makes everything feel fake. In actuality I probably am just a social guy. Also, so as not to freak anyone here out, the ideation is not nearly as bad anymore, which is why they let me out. Oh dear that doesn't sound good. At the risk of repeating what someone else may have said, have you tried counselling? I see a counselor and a psychiatrist every month, and I'm seeing a different counselor at the moment while on vacation visiting my parents in Taiwan, and I'm going to Skype my counselor in the US in a few days. And as stated before, I take a bunch of medication for it.

No suicide attempts but heavy ideation and some forms of moving toward it (I don't want to go into detail). And yeah, I think I'm just dissociated a bit, which makes everything feel fake. In actuality I probably am just a social guy. Also, so as not to freak anyone here out, the ideation is not nearly as bad anymore, which is why they let me out.

Yesterday my depression was triggered particularly badly (still hasn't let up) because I was hanging out with friends and having fun for the holidays, which is weird because one would expect to feel better in those situations. I'm the "funny guy" who cracks jokes and talks a lot and makes people laugh. When I get like that I feel like I'm putting up a front. I'm afraid to talk about it, too, because people get worried about me and it troubles them (I have a really big support system though). I know I put my parents through hell with this shit even though they try not to show it much, especially when I end up hospitalized like I just did.

I really need to start exercising, like xxx said. I got out of a 10 day stay in a psych ward about 20 days ago, and frankly I'm not a whole lot better at this point. Better enough to stay out I guess. Started some new "Latuda" drug that costs a million dollars (thankfully Obamacare pays for it). It's supposed to help with bipolar depression but it doesn't seem to be helping much, at least at the current dose.

Yeah fuck MDE. I used to like them (I did start this thread after all), but they're really just assholes, regardless of how funny they are.

I don't even know how they made the synth parts. I've never heard synths like them.

Zeigenbock Kopf is one of my favorite bands, they're on Tigerbeat6 iirc.

Animal Magnetism is one of the funniest things I've ever seen.

GQ on the EQ is great and Down With the Scene is one of my favorite albums, but some of his other stuff is unlistenable. Definitely a hit-or-miss guy.

really good thanks for sharing I keep hearing about this guy. I think he lives walking distance from my house.

I pretty much consider Adrian's discography to great. If I was forced I might actually say Midnight Section is his most solid release. I do like TROG more that PoV but I love both to death. PoV is more danceable.

this is fucking incredible

DJ Tanner

My question: was anything he used turing complete?

it doesn't need to be boozy like that though, some brewers just play that up. I've had some excellent light-bodied bocks. When it's boozy and hoppy it can be a lot to stomach Oh man, I love high-alcohol high-IBU black IPAs. Sometimes I think I like the taste of alcohol itself more than the taste of most alcoholic beverages. I had Stone's Self Righeous Black IPA a while back, it was damn good. More recently, Bell's Expedition Stout, which was really tasty. I'm aging a bottle of it.

I like the ring modulated recorder solo at 33:10. "Aww yeah, play it baby!"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vv9G3I1FkuI

Ah, yes. That one. I was vaporwave before it was cool.

If I was the creator of this thread (I'm sort of amazed that I wasn't) I would have locked it 20 pages ago.

when i was in 4th grade i punched a kid in the face because he wouldnt give me back my bionicle

that video is so confusing

uh http://pitchfork.com/news/55596-stream-aphex-twins-long-lost-caustic-window-lp/