My mum had a boook she read bits of as a kid that basically explained that if u look hard enough you can find patterns connecting one thing to any other thing.. it's a fun exercise, perhaps not so useful.
The worldview I generated in the op really has some aspects I quite love but is falso filled w holes.. but so is every other worldview eh.
Thankfully as I was super focused on different things I didn't come close to hurting any1 of myself.
I do choose to think We all are a yin yang, symbolically speaking (beings in perfect equilibrium) And that the boundaries between the self and the everything else are an illusion too, makes me feel good inside believing this .
Oh and also that death is nothing but a long dream.