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  1. hoenestlty speaking it went like this from that 1) first i say like UH ??? what else to do in therapy when learning how to handle feelungs, but really don't know ho to handle yet, becus hasn't bene in therapy for a long time and don't know the "technics". like when waiting 4 da therapy to kick in what to do in the "mean time", during the Waitin gtime. like now...if panikk attakkx cum what to do other than take xannaz, becuz i wud want to learn to handle da feelungs in more lush wayes 2) she say ye good gueston, lez talk in da future. and she says like "i'm kinda worry about u, yuys yus you can send private msssages or you can email me if u feeling bad, it good". i say like oh i ddidn't know chearssss i thought it wud be inappropriate but ye. she says "no thang is inappropriate in this therapy, go for it. i will answer you" 3) "if a client takes a drug he uses chemicall wayes to handle feelings that's no good" i am like , , , , , yus 4) future comes and she just starts honing it in. "substance abuse is a barrier for 4herapy". and some stuf about "drug abusers" and druggies and whatever "it's an ethical question for da therabudist like if the patient.. ops Client. he gets bad feelung from therapy becus of some past things they talk about in therapy. so it's an Ethicall question becus the client will take xanax becus of da feeling and the therabudist knoes he will take a drug" and she says like "Uh Uh I don't really know how one can do therapy work if one is lushed out from the drukqs, like if one is numb from them, how one can work with feelings if numb" i try to explain like maybe it's a differen thing like a) getting high for years so that you don't even feel feelings and forget you even had feelings (would take lots of drugs) and like b) maybe stopping the panix and butt-in-penis feelings if it gets too much etc.... and like since in b) don't kno any other way becus hasn't learned good wayes from therape like in b)-man you are not "Numb" all day long, you are just numb from time to time and you kno you feel like shit??? and like if i was a)-man i wud not even come to therapy bcus this is expenzive, i wud use therap money for the drug 5) she gets it all backwards. everything, like sheayes she understands but really probs thinks what did he jus sayi say yes wull dah don't you remember that's why i asked the guestong m'lady, was a gueston about how to handle feelings when it can take time in therape to learn the good behaviyour 6) then the fuckken "you look like a drug abusah, you are kinda tired at times and you have this look like blabhablahblah" and she KNOWs it's dogtor prescripd medications so i don't really even understand how it's her business to walk on the other dogtors's shoes 7) and i ask like why u say it like that, why do u first say i am a junkie and then to "make it good" (but not apogolize) she says it's just what i look like so she gets the vibe from me. and to make it all good like to talk it out, she says i look like a substance drug abuser. well i ask like how wud that feel like wud u say that to an alcoholicist or a hooker, like wud u say to them "well u just look like one" 8??) mad talking about some fukeng Psychotherabuttic stuff and breatheng stuff.. i say if they had helped me i wud not have come to therapy rite?? fukken "cold showers" (golden) don't really help if u shower for 3 hours daily just to try to forged 9) I priwhat message her and ?? if i was true-ly numb wud i feel this bad m'am??? (we been sending ee-males during this time so it's not in-abbroriate) and fkk it just HURTz when she says stuff like that, like you are, you look like. like being called things like that when went to therapy 1st becus of old mama/papa things like they calleng me stupid ass names and all that and she knoes. and like jus get real bad feelung from being treated that way even in therapy ((and when i ha ttried to ask her during the meetings like why she say like that, why not ask, why no nothing. and every time i had asked some questiong (like why) she Allways reply the same. this: "Golly good guestong. I don't know how to answer it qiuck, it's a big guestson and would take some time to think about da answer")) and in da emale i ask some guestons etc, like now she knoes the guestons befor hand so she won't say "hard to answer...." (really it feels so fukn stupido when you try to ask __anything__ and no reply never) and now she does the SAME thing...like i dunno whaz wrong with me when even da therapudist does the same thing, jus tries to put me down etccc 10) she answers: Hello mr.Cheese. Therapy Is Not Done In Email. I have reserved time for you on . . . . . If you are not coming, please inform me the day before.If you need need help, please contact your local hoespital (during the office hours). If you need criticall help call this number (free) r0909909. If you are feeling suicidial call this number 34567" EOF like JUS like a robot messageng. beforeeeee she had answered some guestons but now nothing. lol. and i don't know what happened to the "you can email me it's not in appropriate : ) ) " thing. it changed. btw weird thing is that "If you ain't cuming" PART. becus some time ago (~2 weaks ago) i com to therapy and she open door and she just blurts it out "i thougt you would not be comeng, i didn't know if you come or no". I am like "whattttt why not come? and why didn't you just ask?" well you got it right no answer. and i say like i wud have informed her i am not coming if that wudave been the case?? she is like "uhhh" so i dunno if she is putting on the "Heat" to get rid of me
  2. yeas. Honing it in ass we talk chears 19 hours ago
  3. ok therapies is a HOAX comfirmed!!!!! I explaind the therapist the "sex addic gurl going to therapy and therapist first telling da gurl like "u don't have to pretend to be anyone who you are not... here you can freely be who you are" etcetc the mumbojumbo and like the therapist concluding the sex gurl's shesson by calling the gurl whooooaaareee (ti's the same thing like what happene to me gnome sane) and the therapist goes all "uhhh...oookkkkayyyyy... uuuuuh duhh i'm not qiute shuuuure what you mean... (she a woman so those are the girly uhhh's you kno when u hear them) so i proceed to ask like why why why wud u call me an attic etc (last time) first sh'es all like "blah blah blah" (in a ":) ? jus wana help u better u", then she drops even bigger shit bomb than last week !!! 1i'm like oh mi god is this really happening, doesn't she even fukkn THINK let a lone HEAR what she's letting out of her mouff. she said to me that i LOOOKK lik e a drugg attic. I ask Why i look like that? she says ye that's the feeling i get from you. i ask where is it comeing form, the drug attik wibe. she says "yessss you know somtimes when you come here you look tired and slow and you just havve this look". i aks like....??? "I look slow and tired?"? i udnnno if this was 1 moment when she realized what she had said (or what) but she goes all "i'm just worried abot you", says that kinda stuff. (meaning: tryna change the subject) etc then i ask like you saying i look like a drug attik,,,, would you say "you look like a sex attik or a whore" to the sex attic gurl i tried to make an example of earlier...she goes all "uh no i wud not" i ask like why do u say that to me then "don't think about it" yes not think about it yes gonna solve many a problem.....no apolog no nothing no sorry no nothing just "try not to think about it" then she starts raising her voice and talking ina more and more patron-izing voice. just sux like i dunno really whaz wrong with me when even a therapist goes ballistic and says that kinda stuffffff. just makes me sad. looking like a junkie just an another insurance scam. i thought she would be good therapist but must have been just the lust from my part..(transferenz). she doens't kno jak shittttttt chears and don't go to therapy
  4. she feel al ride about computing. thats why i was confued. she said "benxzos numb u don't and u don't make brogres in therapy if u run away form ur head" i said i cud do the same thing with computing, macland, masterbating, shopping. so why is benzos/opyjoyods a proplem? she said i am substance abuse. she said i have to quit. i tried to explain that yus that's why i came to therapes, but she don't see mto understand. first when we met she said benzzos r aightt and if u got pain pls eat opiads, the pain is bigger distracson than eating pain killahs. she said between in a fancy language that i am a junk'ie. like honest. i thought therapedsists arent suposed to pee "jungdemental" or anything. and if the medicaton is Dr prescribed what i a problme? weird thing is, when she say i'm a jjunkie i feel bad so i eat more medications. saying i'm a junkie for haveng to take medication is like you kno imagine a ugly sexy gurl going to therapy and explaining she has probplems with sex and she tells the story of her life and ye she's addictd to sex to run away from proplems. it's her "what she neeeds" to bear life. Ok So Imagine the therapist is all "ohhh darleng, wows tell more pleez" and having the pen in her hand. and the therapists concludes ,,,, saying "whooooore" or biaaaaaaatch it's the same thing. the gurl knows it but saying clumsily calling a whoare is not gonna heal her . the gurl probably gona escape into sex after the "therap" session and sex up her problems away plow by plow therapid doenst seem to understond that medicatonz are not the "proplem" for me (the head on my shouilder is), the mediation is the CURE/Answer. and the ugly sexy gurl? should she stop haveing sex just becus "sex makes u numb and u don't make progresss in therapy if u continue fukking your problemss away"
  5. Ok I don think she any good anymore. romanz is over. she said like "u shud not take benzos. u shud not numb down your feelungs" (and she didn't mean that inthe way of feelings = having da hots for her and surrendering 4 da feleings and telling her i luv her with roses and chocolates and my hand and a ring no. she meant "benzos restricc u from da therapy, u dont make brogress if u eat benzos". it's' cbt therapy (not that one, the other one), so it's not even true she just wants to find a reason to kickban me and my dupes. she don gare if i had to choose between (no pun) her and benzos yes
  6. bro seems like were mis sing brotels... i've cumsulted lokal sex wurkers and 4a moment i thought i cud like u kno "heal" myself thru hookers.... from trauma etcccc u kno hoe it goes...dated a hooker for a vile......not lush really. started becus she cud see the sadeness in my eye and she said it wud not be morale for her aestethics to receive my moneys... so i met a Hooker With A Heart Off Gold (https://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Main/HookerWithAHeartOfGold) seems like we think the same way.. is UK workers any good wat u tink? btw we have many things in common.... pain issues.. opioids... hookers...pain..trauma..ptsd..zoviet france... how long a session shud i book..?? "new temporary frend" dang... "call to stool" is that bridish language..? shud i book a britis hoer? shud i rent a gimp suit or buy one? u kno hoe they say about hockers... like u kno better rent than buy (=marry) and gimp suit same way.... so a rent suit it is yes what do u do after the hocker goes away and the alone-ness cums...? aloneliness i mean. hokkers make u feel aweful (i mean not u but me). after they leave its hurrible, i dont like it at all. its like falling in love, sexing her up and breaking up after a 7 year old breakship but the 7 years of relationship is condensed into an hour approx. so it's horribbbl. and the cumdown (lik a hangover u kno) lasts a long long time.. can be years... sux then u meat her again and a gain and again... wife for an hour.... 300 british roses please thank u, u welcum. it's like paying for a break up.. u feal me?? paying to feel horribl.... re-living trauma.. and it an addicson, can't stop even if tho u wud want, and u kno u gon be feeling awful in an hour, and u still cumtinue... sucks then u decide think like "wows woes i think i have a broplem.. well i think a hooker therapy will cure me.. booking a hooker"...then tearing her up/tearing fo/to her..then feel awful again and 300 roses lost.... i wonda if it wud be ok to make a "recovery from hookers" thread on watmm....??? on General Bantah.. byes my man
  7. no she's a woman not a he-man lol are u really a thearpizt? or are u psychiatris or which one? since u in the field all ready and if therapist yes then what kinda (psychodynamics?) and like not to drag a horse but ""he will love, will not hurt me with his work on my hidden unconscious feelings''" ofc a therapizt wud not HURT u with his (her, not gay) work?
  8. gotta give a tip if there is a "we are the therapy goers" kinda thinkers better to take benzos + opioids b4 the therap session. my therapist noticed (probably has read my watmm threads i pritned out 4 her) and she said "cheese is pain distraccing you from therap...????" i say whaddya mean? put it straight and say: cheese please eat oxycontinue before coming to therap, u in pain and it no good for thiknen. i say and bezos? she say yes cheese take bezos too. she got pain too so she kno what im thinken (oxy+albrazolama) so i take them befoe the session. and it works. i am not in physiccal pain and not in mental pain. and it workx as a thruth sherum, i wudnt normaly open up 2 hot ladyes but it's a secret. after therapy i take some more, to help with the "thinkin". i call this the Elvis treatment. and if u get anxiety ridden as fuk when the therap ends and u all alone with yor thoughts 4 a few days again, opijoyds + benzos help the mind to cope last tip. find the lady with the sexiest look in er eye. becos the LOOK in r EYE is the ONLY thing u are gona be watching for many many years.... don't pick ugly filthy ridden stare like yoiur mothers....try to find a lady with a healing star
  9. reading the first paragraphi think he was barefoot as in baredicked ok i thikn i unerstand the story. seehe a sweed moker. then he was naked. walked into water. "fisher man held out his hand" wtf does that mean? if u are naked and someone holds out their hand kinda sad story. just wanting to be straig nakked and they always drag u bag. "some 30 times" "without thinking of the risks to his life" must be aweful to live without thinking about risks !!!!! jk i mean think a bout it: the guy was anudist.. jus wanted to be naked in da nature. and his name was COCKBURN. so don't smoke
  10. o Ma gooooood ! thankyaw are you really a therapizt? "patient unconsciously re-enacts the past relatonship instead of rmemebering it and in so doing introduces to the treatment a wealth of information about past relatonships" i don't know what relatonship i'm re-living or sumtin, i can't remember?????? "patient experiences the doctor as a significant figure from the patient's past" i still don't know what figure... who was she/them....??? how to remember and the second one 2) " a selfobject dimension in which the patients LONGS for a healing or corrective experience that was missing in da childhood" ye that's what it is :((((((((((((((( but i've asked how to hav it :( and i haven't had an answerr and the part about "When subjected to hateful invective from their patents, dynamic psychiatrists do NOT angrily reject them as most other pepole in their lives wud" ye i get that, but what happens in da other case? if the therapudist is subjeced to sexful invcective from da patient? and ye read the pdf thank yaw, but i don't gettttttt it in da 1st page u said quote * Posted June 16 When ever patients of mine tell me they have sexual feelings towards me i tell them back it’s a sign of their resistance to therapy bc they’d rather see me as a lover then as someone who’s about to face them with their unconscious buried feeling and also if im a lover im not a therapist and if im not a therapist he/she is not a patient and if not a patient they dont have any problem at all. It’s just a plain resistance to therapy, it’s perfectly normal but your therapist should tell you that and explain everything. If was your therapist id ask you how do you feel talking to a man/woman about your feelings, I usually do. unquote i mean i don't get how the transference of lush full feelings is resistance? in da pdf it's talked abut how resistance = being late, not taking medications, being silent, not being the therapy bill, not taking the advice from tha therapist i mean how is lust feel any of that????
  11. not just mental health, just health carers.. i mean physiotherapists and nurses and dental carers don't care about mental things... and i don't think they find me attractive at all, it all jus in my head u kno. even if they did find attractive (if giv phone numbr) they don't find "me" attractive, they jus find the "idea" attractive..cos that's what they'r brogramed to do. in all those health schoolz they plant the seed in yo head if u talk to any hot health carer gurl (mental espezialy) they all have basketball case boi frens. becuz they lov to take care of them. a gurl put it well 1 time when she said she don't like me at all, she jus wana be away from me so she can "miss" me, u kno. it was jus the idea she liked :''( and there's no in bit ween. a health carer gurl may be nice, but any regular gurl is no nice. yesterday i realizd ive had like 10 gurls hit/slap me. i ask why??? reasons are 1) i dunno 2) (silence = no answer) 3) i jus wanted to 4) you look like you cud use a good slap so i done it. you have the rite kinda face for it
  12. not in"luv" more like jus fall all over someone. and not like everyone, jus the care giver womyn. fukkit's like dental dr lady, physiotherapist, therapist, and nurse lady. Ye I mean I just remembered this nurse I had last year, o mi god. posted about it on watmm and only now i'm realizing whatthe fukk it is all about. I met the same sex nurse again when i had the next injekson and she gave me her mobile phone number. in my mind i was at the same time like wow score and like wow that is real unethical etc i mean if you're a nurse u don't fukn mess your privat life with the nurse life. but ye i never sexed her up or anything, i called the number, she dind't answer, left a a txt msg later and she jus replied u must be confuse. i reply why givv number if not wana meat. she jus said som stupid ass shit and after that i started injeccing by myself and i've had real gurlfrens and i always start to hate it becus it's only as fuck. it's like being alone togehter. or togehter alone. i jus wana be taken care off and all da gurls are like "cheese pls take care of me" as if i was a pimp?
  13. never too old 4 a circumherson o mi god "Deconstructing Harry is about a writer, Harry Block who feels alienated and isolated in the real world. The only place that he can function is in the world of fiction, where he would prefer to spend most of his time. His real world is a mess. He has been to six psychiatrists; he's been married three times, he has an addiction to prostitutes; he's a pill popper and an alcoholic." "Personally, he's a wretch -- a pill-popping, alcoholic lout who has few friends and can't stay faithful to one woman." wat pills does he eat? don't u fuken say....benzos.....the movie was made in 1997? so no computers innit? have u seen Pretty Woman (the movie) it a good 1
  14. ye it's always that sopranos trhing... i think that character thing in Sopranos the TV movie was a HOAX to get people to attend therapy OR to get embareassed but i tell u what my mayne.i used to hav this previos therapizt i used to have. she was uglier than the nowadays therapist. i didn't really trust her becos she was so fukkn annoying (really, not just fukken "projeccing" or transfertilizing or sum shi) but ye so first time really gots the guts to trust her and i told her some whaever secret i had been holding inside me 4 a long time. i developed a big ass boner after finishing the secret telling and i don't really remember anything after that? but ye she sukked big time becoz i cudnt trust her (after telling me sum shit about like "ye i cann tell other people about yor issues if i want to if i just omit your name and don't tell your name, your issues are not yours, just your name is yours" and u kno had to (try to) learn to trust on da begining of each sesson. welll tell u what? my dick was telling me lies, was incorrect!!! bbecos in the end the therapist was a run-a-mouth untrustable. but ye so tis therapizt i have now. i tell her everydink and i don't have to try to trust cos i trust becos she's hot. but i don't get any boners not so ever (durink a shession). dang now that i think/thought about it maybe i really do have som real issue with ugly-sexy gurls and it wasn't just a stupid thoery. fukkk
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