I play acoustic guitar, and mostly do bluesy finger picking type stuff these days.
I wish I knew. I've asked one of my (at the time) closest and most honest friends if there's something wrong with me that I can't see and I couldn't get anything out of her. She's not the type to withhold that sort of stuff, either. Maybe she couldn't see it, or maybe it's just that there's something wrong with the way I socialize. It's also possibly because my friends are all the people who were slackers and wackos in our teenage years and they've all either gotten even wackier or even lazier. I had to stop communicating with some of them because they got too crazy, but then that only leaves the people who don't give a shit about anything.
The other problem is that I can't relate to most people I meet. I like people who I can talk about philosophy and biology with, but most people like to talk about the latest news about the president (yes, even the people who went to college and got degrees in philosophy and biology). I can't stand hearing about that shit. Everybody in america has a fucking stupid and shitty take on politics and ethics and it fucking pisses me off when I have to hear about it. I've always believed that everybody should be homeless for at least a year because I think most people would stop making such a fuss over inane bullshit like voting. I'm sandwiched right in between two generations of total fucking squares.
Also I don't have any social media like snapchat or tiktok and I think most people my age do their communication through there. I'd rather be lonely than install that garbage onto my phone.
Edit: before you tell me that I'm lonely because I have an angry or negative personality, I wanna mention that I don't actually say any of this stuff out loud. I'm just venting online because I won't suffer social consequences here. I actually find it easy to like people and get along with them most of the time, but most of them just have too much bullshit that I don't want to deal with any more than I have to.