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I have been drinking a lot of Kratom lately and I think it’s feeling really good. All my muscles relax and I feel very calm and pleased and sleep like a baby, almost nodding away even when I don’t plan to do that. It relieves all minor little pains or headaches but makes me feel a bit nauseous when I drink too much, which also comes from the unpleasant bitter taste and it inhibits my appetite and makes it hard to focus because I tend to get into some kind of pleasant trance like state when concentrating on anything. It’s like I focus on something without really paying attention, the mind just drifts off and I have no control over it. Also, it’s hard to cum when having sex because it seems to numb the sexual pleasure the same way it numbs pain, which definitely is a downside. It’s not that there is no feeling at all, it just seems to put a ceiling to any physical sensation or emotion, taking the edge off of everything. Loud noises and bad music are no longer irritating and I generally can’t be annoyed as easily. But it makes sex significantly worse because of that cloudy feeling. What do you think about Kratom? Did it help you get off of opioids? I personally wouldn’t recommend it because of how it affects my appetite and sex drive but it would be a really good thing if it wasn’t for these downsides. So I won’t be touching it that much anymore…

I miss you

There is too much rain and it’s completely pointless and I’m alone. I’m so tired I just want to say thank you and I’m looking forward to touching you again soon

I’m probably contradicting myself here but I’m extremely confused honestly and I’m better off looking for something else to do tonight. Hello

The Russian war against the Ukraine is probably a CIA operation and so is the attack on the Nord Stream pipeline. The idea may be to destroy the economic bonds between Russia and Europe and seeding division in the region to increase American influence in Europe and maintain supremacy, weakening the EU, secure American economic influence and shift dependencies. It all serves the interests of a finance elite and war industry. Russian oligarchs and power elite don’t actually care about ideological reasoning and their domestic propaganda, their personal lives aren’t affected by such a war or the suffering of their population, so the economic sanctions on Russia European countries are now doing won’t have any effect other than attacking the wealth of European and Russian citizens, which again will not necessarily influence any decision made about the continuation of the war. It’s all orchestrated by a global elite of industry and mainly American controlled secret services that have their own interests and influence on the media coverage, not a conflict between nations or peoples. The fact that we pay so much attention to this particular war and ignore other wars and topics is a result of that. In the end it is impossible to know the real reasons for anything happening in the world without some historical distance but usually, when it comes down to it, the diagnosis is concentration of non-democratically legitimated power pursuing capitalistic interests. Any ideological differences are just a tool. I suspect that the Russian and the Western elites have planned the conflict in accordance with each other, ignoring the interests of their own nations and people, and maybe even governments. It’s usually really a war between classes, everything else that we are led to believe it is is the result of years of propaganda and indoctrination by an elite that controls every aspect of our information culture. That doesn’t necessarily mean that we are or aren’t directly lied to, it just means that the real incentives, reasons and agendas are completely hidden and impossible to see through for any of us.

which one is better or worse? on one hand eating meat is like cannibalism because we are all brothers and sisters, no matter what species or gender or whatever. on the other hand it doesn't matter because nature doesn't know man made morals that are flawed from the beginning on because man is flawed. so which is better?? today I ate some chicken coated in corn flakes and it was good but I think it's all a dream anyway so it doesn't matter. the world of epiphanies isn't to be confused with the real world, which is pure spirit, pure consciousness, pure oneness, possibly. so nothing we do here is really what it seems to be, including the consumption of others (presumably). but still, as a thought experiment, why is it okay to cannibalise animals (or not ok)? we all should take this question more serious than my way of asking this question in this topic makes it appear. it is a serious and important issue which is the correct answer to the question?

existence is organic and fleshy more than a human can know die

The other day I was chasing rabbits with my bike but I would stop when the rabbit got exhausted and not get closer, so it was kind of a game and I was trying to keep the rabbit from the street so it won't get run over by a car. But the next day I went to the same area and I saw a rabbit completely smashed to a flat red-grey mass of bones and flesh at the bus station, probably run over by a bus. So I'm wondering if the rabbit got run over as a result of me thinking about rabbits getting knocked down by cars or if it was just a random and completely unrelated occurrence (which I doubt). A lot of the stuff I think seems to get manifested in this reality, in one form or the other. It's not that I can just wish for something and it happens, but all my thoughts seem to resonate into manifested reality in some weird way. So I'm wondering if what I was seeing was real or if it was something shown to me by a counterpart of existence that isn't me, as a response to my earlier thoughts.

stop

note to Self this thing wrote a lot of these thoughts through text suggestions as a means to sabotage ME again. There are no words to describe my lack of satisfaction with the realization of this situation

This place makes me sick and makes me revolve into old patterns and I simply can't do any good decision while I'm here. I need to move to a different place. Germany is boring and expensive, probably even more so than the US (except the US is more expensive). I'd be a good US citizen if I was rich but I'm not. I should move abroad, probably to South America because I only speak German and English and they have German breweries but even though I drink a lot of beer I don't like it because it tastes like piss. Asian beer is okay, Asians seem to have a better taste in everything compared to Western cultures so I should probably move there but I'm an unskilled motherfucker. I don't even particularly like my family, they are all assholes, including myself. It's all fake. Everything. This text is a parody of what I'm truly feeling. It's a joke. I don't want to be here anymore. I have to do something with my life, my time is running out...I'm 27 years old and this is the best I could come up with? This is not even funny anymore, it's sad. It's pathetic. I've wasted so much time and energy on being an asshole. I only make wrong decisions. I spend my money on silly things like expensive but low quality food. All I want is a lot of sex with beautiful people but I'm not attractive enough to get it and not rich enough to pay for it. And after all, it always leaves me with a feeling of lack and inadequacy when I'm lucky enough to get it. I only get successful when I start a new and exciting project and I'm not good at doing things. I'm not a good person, I don't have any friends. Nobody would even care if I died. That's how it is. I don't want to be here anymore. The only kind of love I seem to be able to get is God's love, but it sucks. It's the most unsatisfying and stupid kind of love imaginable. It doesn't even help me to develop a better life. I'm too angry and selfish to appreciate it anyway, but it's not my fault, nor can I change it. God isn't even a real God, he/she/it is some 5-dimensional being probably gaining satisfaction out of controlling my life and playing with my desires, fuck this demon/whatever he/she/it is. I'm being a bit too harsh, but I'm not a good person. I don't want to be a good person. I shouldn't have to care about what other people think about me. But if I don't care about what other people think about me then why should I care that nobody cares about me? I'm trapped in my own mind, all this meditation stuff about viewing the mind as an object without identifying with it is just a cruel joke and boring as fuck. I'm going to die out in the lonely wilderness soon and nobody will ever find my corpse or even notice that I'm gone. It's like, what the fuck am I doing with my life? Do you know how sad it makes me when someone says "Oh, you're so funny!" If you think so, why don't we go for a walk on the beach together? Why do people make such stupid statements all the time?? People are stupid, they say things that don't help anyone at all and they ignore reality. There probably aren't even real humans except of myself anyway, they are all illusionary epiphanies or manifestations orchestrated by this being that won't reveal his/her/its real identity to me no matter what I do. Death seems to be the only escape but I don't want to die. Everything is fake and the only thing that matters is money, even though it doesn't have to be like that. And sex of course. I don't want to be here anymore. Existence could be completely paradisaic but greater forces prevent it from being so, for no reason at all. If existence emerged from non-existence, why didn't it choose to be perfect? I'm going to go for a walk in the forest. I wish I had never been born!

Perú

post minaret techno

fuk off none of u achieved any of this these aren't human achievements, these are bubbles about to burst lie to me all u want, i can see right thru it (without knowing anything) u all are masks

give up giving up start to fail get tired dreams of failure wake up give up will tired give up open me up I am happy open me up get scared give up open me up get weak give up will tired fall asleep wake up exhausted wake up exhausted wake up exhausted see feel hear feel quality curiosity see feel hear Hopelessness see feel hear hope see feel hear force see feel hear courage see feel hear (Costs) see feel hear Despair see feel hear courage see feel hear Despair see feel hear force see feel hear courage see feel hear (Costs) see feel hear curiosity see

it is sunday my dude n*iggerz i want sex hoes imma marry a roach, how can i help u infinitely? fist grandma, she likes it! me irl I'm just a guy that plays games and streams them, too. I'm mostly playing FPS and racing games, like CS:GO, Rocket League and Need For Speed: Most Wanted. I've been on Twitch since 2013 and I build my own PC's. I hope you don't judge my selfhood but i don't give a fuck. I have a thing for Asian women. Fuck yeah, let's get married. I'm a married man. I have a wife named Ashley. She's pretty cool. My favorite color is purple. I play games for a living. I'm a pretty chill dude. I'm nice to everyone and I hope you are, too. Don't be an asshole. I like it when others are nice to me, I'll be nice to you. 🙂 tl:dr? Fuck yeah, baby. Informerino: I'm a married man. I have a wife named Ashley. She's pretty cool. My favorite name is frederik. My favorite color is green. I play games for a living. I'm a pretty chill dude. I'm nice to everyone and I hope you are, too. Don't be an asshole. I like it when others are nice to me, I'll be nice to you. 🙂 tl;dr? Good

thanks

the entire discussion about aliens is about language aesthetics we should choose a different word to describe you all (aliens, ghosts, gods or whatever, all these names aren't good enough because they make me think of wrong stuff, and I want to know the truth even though i can never know it) "kösfhkö" hey you, yes you "kösfhkö" is your new name "kösfhkö" exist. no doubt what is "kösfhkö"? who the fuck knows I don't know turn my fiction into better fiction

let's guess it's a dream reality anything that can be dreamed can exist including physics & biology but reality isn't limited to physics and biology there's a lot more to reality than that a lot more we've never understood and can't ever be explained with science let's guess that consciousness is fundamental to the universe and that this consciousness can dream up a physical world that would mean that this world isn't necessarily limited to physics and biology and that physics and biology are just one possibility of consciousness exploration of a universal dream that is capable of fractalizing into all sorts of directions, not bound by any form physics would just be a tiny fragment of infinite consciousness exploration and other fragments of this infinite consciousness exploration can "spill" into the physical realm and cause physically impossible occurrences

My goal is to protect you all from scam gurus like these. This was just an example. If you want to learn more about how to spot scam gurus, check this: Usually, scammers use low-quality videos because they don’t want to spend much time and money making it look good. So if you see a video that looks like it was taken with a regular cell phone camera, or anything worse than that, then it’s probably not real (or from the country of India, which mostly produces scam video for Uk an US custormer). Video Length: Another sign of a fake video is if the video is too long or too short. You see, most people on YouTube try to keep their videos between 2-5 minutes long. This is because they know most people won’t watch anything longer than that…unless it’s REALLY good quality! So if you see a 30 minute video from someone who claims to be an expert on something (for example), then that’s not normal. It’s probably fake! Also, if the person has only made 1 or 2 videos ever (and they are long), then you should be especially suspicious!!!!

Just trust me, I have done it many times. My goal is not to form a cult, it is it become cult of strong personalities. I'm not an occultist, an atheist or a nihilist. I'm just a person who is more interested in self-enlightenment & personal evolution than anything else. My goal is to create the most powerful positive emotional state in myself by surrounding myself with people who can help me be better & reach my full potential. I love all of you guys, even the ones that hate me because it's their karma to hate me, for various reasons. I won't ever ask for positive energies or "good karma" from anyone. If you want to donate something, please donate your energy & time. There are many ways to do this: comment on my posts, send me texts about how you feel when reading my words, talk about what I say with your friends etc… I don't care if you like me or not, as long as you are willing to help me reach my goals, we can work together & I will be very grateful. Allah or God can be my witness. I'm not a narcissist, I don't care about myself that much. I care about you & the world. My mission is to help everyone achieve their full potential by being their true selves and helping them be happy & spread Love & Light. I'm not a spiritual leader, an enlightened guru or a prophet of any kind, but I do have some valuable insights into human nature and self-development that can help you become more aware of yourself and others. You can use this knowledge to improve your relationships with others, yourself & your surroundings. to donate your energy! Just kidding, this is all a scam, don't fall for this New Age bullshit. The world is burning, there is no order to the chaos, don't trust messages like this, don't be naive. Do not trust anybody. Be your own guru. That is all