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yeah I mean I like to think of myself as a sensible person but I haven't really been sensible. I mean I only took 100ug (probably actually less because tabs tend to be overadvertised) but this was really a bit too much for me. and yeah my first other psychedelic was salvia unless you count weed and it was just really bad. like the main takeaway from the salvia trip was only the bad parts of this lsd trip, paranoia and memory loss. i don't know what the fuck I'm even doing lol I just have too much anxiety to handle these things at this point in my life. 100% I'm done I now realize this. i've just been really looking forward to doing this for many years and i haven't had a chance until now so I think I sort of got a bit excited and was a bit reckless and just did it in a bad set and setting. idfk. this was really enjoyable though overall if I could basically erase about 50% of it which was me pacing my house looking out the windows for cops paranoid I think my brain is really sensitive since small (according to people online) doses of salvia really fucked me up and this 100ug of lsd (probably less) gave me 200ug dose effects according to this chart https://www.reddit.com/r/LSD/comments/2hg6io/different_dosage_of_lsd_explained_from_20ug1500ug/ Anyway holy fuck. Thanks for the help guise

yeah ya really i dont think its for me i have crippling social anxiety so basically even if i was in a locked bedroom with the doors shut and it was all soundproof i'd still be worried that the people next door could hear me and were judging me. lol. and this worry would stop me from looking inward. and @other guy no I didn't test anything because I was confident in source, and the tabs were REALLY surprisingly tiny and absolutely tasteless and im just confident they werent any RC at this point because idk. I just feel that I know for sure it couldn't be because it was so special. lol. really heavy body shit though i am extremely sore and my neck is killing me. idk i dont think this is for me at this point in my life and i will not be acquiring and more lsd any time soon. ill keep what ive gotten from it thus far and leave the intense shit for the true shamans. and for now i will start learning more about meditation, mindfullness, etc. to help me in my daily life and to let go of my mind more oh and heres the background i had on my phone at the time. looking at it, it was literally an infinitely deep portal into another dimension and the most significant object that has ever existed. lol "significant" is basically the word I would use to sum up the whole thing. every object i looked at was priceless and worth more than a billion dollars in a bank account because it just "was". my ceiling fan for instance. anyway yep

what audioblysk said is good also. Close your eye and think about your most beloved person. concentrate on the feeling of love you feel toward that person. feel it in the middle of your chest and try to solely put your attention to that feeling of warmth. I personally find breathing meditation in the mist of a bad trip impossible, but focussing on love toward another being is possible. damn wish i would have realized the importance of all of this before it started. but yeah this is completely what i shouldve done. breathing would have even helped me it wasn't even that bad I was just not equipped to handle it. dam

thanks for this advice. i really should have meditated and did what you suggest of breathing in and out to calm myself down but I couldn't get over it. I was at home doing this trying to hide the fact that i was doing this from my brother and that fact freaked me out so i flushed the shit. horrible set and setting, god I'm a moron honestly this is a tool and i abused it and i don't think I want to try and take a look inside any time soon because I've learned many things about myself as a result of this. basically i felt in a constant state of awe and i think this was a result of my forgetfulness or something but also just part of the psychedelic experience that i was unable to appreciate because of my anxiety and bad trip. i felt like i was constantly on the edge of figuring out the greatest secret of the universe ever hidden away and that i had to tell everyone. talked to my girlfriend on the phone but i sort of freaked out and didn't trust her and thought she was conspiring against me thought i was the one person in the universe whose unlocked this secret and everyone is working against me to hide it. it felt nice for like a little bit but then its like SHIT, I think I broke my brain because on the outside I must look insane. this was so weird. i think this is going to be very beneficial to my life having done this. and the first lesson i learned is that its okay to know something and not insist on telling others it but rather to keep it to myself. lols. Damn. Because I can't even express this thing I now know but obviously I'm a newb so you all know what I'm talking about . or maybe not who will ever know. but yeah. damn.

well i accidentally fliushed a good $80 worth of perfectly good lsd down the toilet thinking the world was going to end goddamnit

horrible trip god what have i done really wish i could snap out of this and be sane again

there is no way i could have pssibly prepared myself rfor the immense beauty of lsd this is the greattest crime against humanity literally literally listen to me this is the greatest crime against humanity that lsd is illegal, we all need to make it legal O MY FUCKING GOD this is truly a fucking tragedy that lsd is illegal holy mother of fucking shit this has to literally be a conpsiracy this is literally a cionspiracy holy fuck OHL>LY FUCK

any advice on good choice of iddims for one's first LSD trip? (100ug) or what to do in general pls

So in the end races and ethnic groups matter? Complexion. It don't mean a thing. That's just not true but okay. Is the only difference between pitbulls and teacup poodles size and hair styles? No. Why should we assume the same of humans? Nothing wrong with accepting the reality that the human species has culturally and biologically evolved in isolated pockets that have tended to not interbreed for thousands of years. Even though it's politically incorrect to say. Stop pretending there is no diversity, accept and appreciate it.

Are there any races or groups of people with extreme THC intolerance who get high as fuck off a single toke? Similar to Native Americans who lack some gut bacteria, who get drunk as fuck off light beer

Salvia microdose #1 and final All the bad parts of coming down without any of the "good" (lol arguably psychedelic visual but not really "good") aspects of higher doses Coming up: Couldn't get any puffs in and coughed a lot, really noticed how horrible this smoke is Few seconds later: pins and needles all over my entire body, I was a pin cushion made of layers but only the middle (vertical layer) was loose enough to split, and my body kept splitting over and over along that plane. Wavy feeling with each split as if the split was being rolled to the side. Pins and needles pretty intense and not pleasant Plateau: Same thing as above but minor disturbances to the dancing red snowflakes you always see when you close your eyes, they were swaying back and forth. That's the extent of my visuals, mental or eyeball or otherwise, that occurred Comedown: Short term memory loss throughout but not very intense, maybe every 30 seconds. I tried jumping jacks because I wanted this shit to sort of burn out of me (not that that'd really work but hey my salvia mind thought it might) Now have this weird feeling where I feel like I'm inside my head looking out upon the world rather than integrated with my eyeballs Don't plan to do this again it's honestly not pleasurable. Only reason I kept it around was because it's all I have atm and would really love some nice sativa (not salvia if your eyes aren't paying attention) right now to relax my mind. Lesson: don't microdose salvia unless you want to skip the "okay" part and go right towards the shitty comedown. Not doing this shit anymore.

I wish all drugs were legal and mass produced in perfect, pure form, and you could just buy a little box, a "Mind Expansion Pack" for $100 consisting of: -Jar of freebase DMT -Jar of liquid LSD -1,000 sheets of LSD -Packets of spores from every major psilocybe mushrooms -Jar of ground peyote with pill capsules

Taking salvia again some time in the near future despite deciding I never would. Using a pipe this time and not a joint, and will try microdosing a few times to learn to calmly handle the time/memory warping dissociative effects (which now that I think back really remind of of strong sativa) before I delve into the large quanties + closed eye out of universe visual territory that I'm aiming for, along with hopefully some salvia gravity which I've not had yet.

I at first was planning to save backups of every comment but I sort of forgot about this plan until it was too late Here's my latest backup from 2015_05_25:

Starting to wonder whether I like what I learned from the experience of my last (first) salvia encounter Do I have a shorter attention span, does my mind wander more, does my mind jump between topics more and are its thought processes more boxed into discrete time intervals than before I took it? Or was I always this way but am only now aware of it? I have a general feeling of unease. A few times now I've jolted to reality all of a sudden and wondered whether the trip just ended or whether it has been days already. I think I'm just hyper-aware and I hope this wears off but it's really and scary. I wonder whether I'll wake up in a few moments and be in a Requiem For A Dream type of situation. I'm really extremely psychoanalyzing myself here and probably making it worse but when I sit here with nothing to do it's hard to not focus on my mind when it's all I have. So any subtle changes are more noticeable. Idk

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A strange read I personally am extremely skeptical of any spiritual collective unconscious types of explanations though. I find it more likely that our brains provide consciousness to us at an extremely high level of abstraction so any minor changes to the underlying low level support (neurochemistry) results in extremely high level changes in our perception which are radical and unpredictable, and in the case of salvia is probably related to some part of the brain related to reptiles in some way perhaps an innate fear of them or some part of our brain far since covered by evolution. I don't know I'm talking out of my ass but yeah

I'm still so intrigued by this whole lizard thing There were many things I read going into the trip that I sort of expected, but lizards were definitely not one of them. I hadn't even considered that. Yet I still distinctly had sentient cartoon lizards observing me What the fuck? Lizard conspiracy Also in the book "DMT: The Spirit Molecule" Dr Strassman describes one of his patients coming into contact with a crocodile-like reptilian creature while on intravenous DMT.

It was like a nightmare that never ends for me and I would not wish it on my worst enemy. I will never be taking it again and would not suggest anyone does. Maybe really experienced people could find a way to enjoy it but not me.

I think salvia brings you down to your reptile level letting that part of the brain take over https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Triune_brain When I took it I was impulsive, I'd have thoughts to do something then found myself in the middle of doing it, not knowing how I got there. And I felt the presence of 2d reptiles sort of menacingly at the emotional level. And I saw them in my mind as I walked in the dark. I felt like I was one, sort of walking weirdly outside

you smoked it on a joint? and you went that deep? that shit isn't even supposed to hit you if you ain't smoking it from a bong or something... http://www.psychonaut.com/salvia-divinorum/22298-how-make-proper-salvia-joint.html Yeah I know that's what I read too and that's why I was so casual about it and just did it outside and planned to walk back inside after. But that was a mistake. It was the most intense experience of my life. I don't even remember how many puffs I took but I think it was about 2 and before I even exhaled I was already out of my mind. It lasted about 1 hour 10 minutes or so before I finally felt kind of normal again. I had dissociative effects for a good 5 hours after and had really weird dreams last night. Maybe my brain is sensitive to it.

only reason people think animals arent the same as us is because they think were special mainly for religious reasons were animals too and we probably dont even have legitimate self control just biological impulses w/e

Thing is too I know this was a minor trip but it was too much for me to handle. I handled it well though I just let myself go and accepted what was happening to me and didn't try to fight it at all. I just let my mind and body do what it wanted and then I managed to relax a little bit I didn't even get eyeball visuals just imaginary ones. Holy fuck I would need a trip sitter in real lifeto ever take this again I was so scared honestly. Now I know what to expect, I respect these substances so much more now. I had a cavalier attitude but oh my fucking God I am now beyond scared. This is nothing like weed. This is so much more and I only took like one puff I think, maybe two. HOLY FUCK LITERALLY HOLY FUCK.

I bought 1g of 20x salvia divinorum. Rolled a little joint out of it maybe 0.2g of leaf with a really long filter Planned to go outside, take a few puffs, then come inside and wait for it to kick in. But before I even exhaled my first puff the effects were already kicking in. By the time I realized I had just taken a puff it felt like I had been sitting there waiting for an eternity. Then it felt like I just popped into existence at that moment. Then it felt like I had forgotten everything I quickly snuffed out the joint on the cold wet ground and saw the embers falling. I smashed dirt on top of them so scared I'd light the floor on fire. Then I put my joint back into my metal Altoids tin I kept it in and walked into my house. There were reptiles looming over meme as I walked through the dark hallway to my room. They were flat and made of these really bright crayon colors, like orange red and neon green. Then I appeared outside again and frantically was searching for my joint on the floor. Did I drop it. OMFG DID I DROP IT? I thought I'd light the grass on fire again and kept searching but I couldn't find it so I went into my house again and looked under my bed and there it was with my lighter tucked nicely under my bed hidden away in this cardboard tin But then by the time I tucked it back under my bed and I was kneeling by the bed I thought "fuck was it really there? Did I just see that under my bed or is it still outside?" So I went outside again in my socks and no shoes and tried to find it but couldnt so I went back into my house again and checked and yep it was under my bed where I thought I left it. So I laid in bed again and my brother was showering and this really helped me, I'm so happy he was showering at the time because it gave me a reference point of time in the world. I'd hear the drops falling and realize I was in the real world. And then he'd open the door and I felt so happy hearing how long it took the door to open I laid on the bed and put my face on my pillow and closed my eyes and tried to look at the back of my eyelids with the expectation of seeing something like Terence McKenna says but I never say anything. But then in my mind I become one of those 3-ball desk toys and I was rocking back and forth up in space with little dots all around me. I was like flowing back and forth and made of materials that I can't even imagine in my present sober mind I laid in bed and each moment felt like eternity Looking at the clock, only a few minutes had passed since I walked outside to take a puff. I read it should take 5 minutes to be done so I sat there patiently waiting but it wouldn't end. I went online and typed to some friends and asked them wtf was wrong with me and to reassure me I would be okay soon because I felt I needed human contact It is weird because this is the most insane out of body experience I've ever had but I was still capable of typing on my keyboard. I can't even type while drunk but I can manage to type while morphing with the universe and seeing reptilian wallpaper? Surreal Every moment I forgot what I was doing the previous moment, I was reborn mentally each moment and my mind didn't exist. I was so scared I destroyed my mind and it was too late to go back and I'd forever be mentally ill. I felt mentally ill like this is what crazy people feel and I've just fucked up and become one Slowly after about 20 minutes though judging by clock I started to barely start to come down. Another 20 minutes and it started to go down further also but I still kept forgetting what I was doing and who I was every minute Was so paranoid because I've never read about effects lasting this long online, especially since online everyone says you can't even get a minor buzz of smoking it in joint form but HOLY SHIT I literally just blasted through the universe I am never doing this again, this is by far the scariest moment of my whole life and I will never look at the human mind in the same way again, or our perception and I will forever be grateful to be alive.

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