No, don't be sorry, I totally agree with you!
You see, I know i have to reduce the lenght of my cycles or repetition. It's a test of patience. Even if testing patience is a meta-product of my production, it's still valid, at least for me.
But when it comes down to brass tacks, it just becomes too long and then people lose interest, including myself.
My problem is also, away from being pretty new to production, health problems. I tend to just zone out too much. Like hypnosis.
In any case, I would again like to point out, that
I have no energy left
I like artifacts and loudness, the physical way it fucks you up, I love repetition, I love madness,
I know my production values can improve, but then again I love to experiement.
Fuck shit. This is not my day.
Im gon have to come back to you with a better answer
This have been my main problem for my whole life
Not being able to explain myself
There is a purpose
A thought behind it all
Even if it all starts out blank