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I love how some of the photodementia stuff feels in my ears (listen on good headphones if you can)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tPHY4NL5BKk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rjq1aTLjrOE not strictly speaking now playing, but it was at work

happy spiral birthdate!

Reading a book of Philip Larkin poems - just unbelievable, so heartbreaking and so beautiful

Yeah it's oil paint spiral

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ntc5kiL0Nj4

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pco91kroVgQ

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6EYoQRPMbEk this album seems awesome so far (found it through Dave Monolith connection - who MadameChaos introduced me to =] )

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sc0BqXN9BKw

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IZDhCveQhOA

I've totally gone off Rossz again - listened to My Downfall and realised I don't really love Rossz http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KzX1LK80DPI ^ Really really beautiful http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4BI_x8cenPY

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ReuBms-qZQk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BAVUPu7URbc

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SM6gPfA8-ik

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VBoo1HpXTRI

But you believe that the two camps exist? I've never heard omnivorous music in that sense that is as good as specialised music (at least in some small sense) as far as I know - I genuinely want to find music that makes me think differently, I don't want there to be a boundary either nah i think they don't really but a lot of bands seem to and the press are lazy so it perpetuates Can you recommend any musicians who use both electronic made music and noisy physical instruments/vocals in a way that rocks and makes you want to go crazy? (genuinely interested, totally understand if you can't think of one off the top of your head)

But you believe that the two camps exist? I've never heard omnivorous music in that sense that is as good as specialised music (at least in some small sense) as far as I know - I genuinely want to find music that makes me think differently, I don't want there to be a boundary either

Have you ever heard a music which successfully combines the best elements of say The Melvins/Venetian Snares or Queen Adreena/Aphex Twin or The Locust/Autechre - is such a thing possible? (Something that is neither rock set to electronic beats nor rock music with electronic instruments but a true melding of the two? Music with electronic stimulation, imagination, diversity and exploration of sound and vocal/analogue instrument gut human emotion/physicality?)

Are the 303 and the Amen break magical?

Larry the cat in the tree is brilliant (reminds me of Ghibli and Amanita design for some reason), and the double/triple exposure very pretty Very nice snapdragons Pattern - I grew some this year, I love how they are like an evil mouth that opens when you squeeze them

The affirmations thing is kind of self-helpy I know - I found the book through Maria Bamford - she's a total self-help nerd (she reads all kinds of self help stuff and it feeds into her comedy quite a bit)

I tried mindfulness meditation - you just focus on your breathing - think verbally 'in' 'out' etc. - if you get a distraction, you focus on it and think to yourself for example 'sound' 'sound' 'sound' or 'i'm thinking about work' whatever it is and then go back to 'in' 'out' as you focus on your chest moving up and down as you breathe. After a while you go to sleep while still awake and I started having strange perceptual things - I felt like I was spinning right and left simultaneously at one point, at another it was like being submerged in some kind of dark warm feeling (my body going to sleep basically) BUT it made me feel crazy (all fragmented and noisy in my head, endless half sentences) (when I was not meditating) - I was really worried for a bit - but later on I did learn to use the skill of being aware of my attention A good kind of meditation is writing 3 pages of longhand every morning whatever comes in to your head - another separate thing you can then do is pick out all the thoughts like 'I'm not good enough', 'I'm careless' or whatever and then convert them into the opposite and write them ten times - 'I'm good enough', 'I'm careful' That's from The Artists Way by Julia Cameron - there's a whole process in there, but that's one technique. The brain drain 3 page thing is very good, it has to be longhand btw I don't do it every day but even if you do it several times and then stop, you start to become aware of repetitive thought patterns, and they become less able to keep repeating, and new ideas can pop into your head Transcendental Meditation is a different one though I think, not sure how it works I think just sitting quietly and doing nothing for half an hour every day might do some good too!

If you live to be old men, will you still make music? If when you die you cease to exist and it becomes for you as though you never existed (the obvious truth as the brain matter in which you exist decays), what's the point in doing anything at all?