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    stupid first world achievements and successes

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    On 7/14/2021 at 7:54 AM, Cryptowen said:

    i know that feeling. at the start of summer 2017 my computer got destroyed, and it was a long time before i could afford another one. i think i went three months without looking at a screen. and then the first time that i did, it was too much. it felt like going off coffee for a couple months & then drinking a full cup (it's like being on a much stronger chemical stimulant). Took a couple days before I could use it for more than ten minutes without getting a headache

    I've gone months without listening to music and it's a lot like this.  I should really try depriving myself of things again.

    stupid first world problems you're dealing with

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    Sorry to start all this shit and then leave.  I ended up going to a 4th of July rave underneath I-95 and channeled all of my negative energy into awesome dance moves.  It was one of the coolest nights of my life.  I got drunk beyond belief and made out with some girl in a public swimming pool.  It's still pretty hazy.

    Edit:  by "public" I mean that we found a gap in the fence lol

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    stupid first world problems you're dealing with

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    6 hours ago, brian trageskin said:

    are you interested in becoming a proficient musician, or in having extended understanding of the language of music, or do you not really give a crap about any of that? 

    sounds to me like you need new friends. also sounds to me like you don't know yourself too well. iirc you're very young so there's that - i don't know myself too well either (even though i'm older than you) so i know how challenging it can be. although i can't begin to understand how one could be puzzled as to why people avoid them. so my guess is you really don't know your friends too well either, you think you know them but you really don't. or something. i don't know, i might be wrong. 

    you could also choose complete solitude as an alternative, although i wouldn't recommend it. not for the faint-hearted. if you're the sentimental/self-indulgent type, it will basically make you age faster. but it's heaven on heart if you're a strong person: being self-reliant, not having to deal with people's bullshit etc. i'm the self-indulgent type and a total wuss so my life is basically hell but if you're the strong type, might be a good thing for you. i don't know. most people are uninteresting anyway so there's also that. 

    maybe you just need to figure out how to meet people who have the same interests as you. but i got a feeling that the real problem is you don't know yourself and the others enough, which leads to all this suffering. 

    For the record, I don't get the feeling that anyone is avoiding me.  I think they just don't care about me very much or they're too busy with other stuff.  People go out of their way to tell me things like "I'm here for you" and "you fit in" but they just don't go out of their way to invite me to things unless I happen to be around or some other chance occurrence happens.  I feel like I'm just an afterthought.  I'm a background character who nobody really thinks about.  The really shitty part is that I used to be in situations where I had people who really cared about me and would go out of their way to do shit with me all the time but they all just drifted away over time.

    stupid first world problems you're dealing with

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    2 hours ago, brian trageskin said:

    what instrument do you play? what's your level/what can you do with your instrument? 

    I play acoustic guitar, and mostly do bluesy finger picking type stuff these days.

    1 hour ago, brian trageskin said:

    also, tell us the whole story here: this isn't the 1st time you complain about people avoiding you/ghosting you or whatever. what's the deal with that? do you smell bad? do you have a massive character flaw you didn't tell us about? 

    I wish I knew.  I've asked one of my (at the time) closest and most honest friends if there's something wrong with me that I can't see and I couldn't get anything out of her.  She's not the type to withhold that sort of stuff, either.  Maybe she couldn't see it, or maybe it's just that there's something wrong with the way I socialize.  It's also possibly because my friends are all the people who were slackers and wackos in our teenage years and they've all either gotten even wackier or even lazier.  I had to stop communicating with some of them because they got too crazy, but then that only leaves the people who don't give a shit about anything.

    The other problem is that I can't relate to most people I meet.  I like people who I can talk about philosophy and biology with, but most people like to talk about the latest news about the president (yes, even the people who went to college and got degrees in philosophy and biology).  I can't stand hearing about that shit.  Everybody in america has a fucking stupid and shitty take on politics and ethics and it fucking pisses me off when I have to hear about it.  I've always believed that everybody should be homeless for at least a year because I think most people would stop making such a fuss over inane bullshit like voting.  I'm sandwiched right in between two generations of total fucking squares.

    Also I don't have any social media like snapchat or tiktok and I think most people my age do their communication through there.  I'd rather be lonely than install that garbage onto my phone.

     

    Edit:  before you tell me that I'm lonely because I have an angry or negative personality, I wanna mention that I don't actually say any of this stuff out loud.  I'm just venting online because I won't suffer social consequences here.  I actually find it easy to like people and get along with them most of the time, but most of them just have too much bullshit that I don't want to deal with any more than I have to.

    stupid first world problems you're dealing with

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    4 hours ago, brian trageskin said:

    the solution to all your problems is pretty simple though: 

    learn music theory - learn how to play an instrument/how to improvise - play with other musicians - become a jazz musician - stay away from drugs and alcohol (smoking weed is fine i guess, smoke weed then but no other substance, especially not alcohol in your case - smoke trees instead) - live the jazz life

    Nobody wants to play with me, even the people who think I'm good.

    stupid first world problems you're dealing with

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    I want to enjoy life but I also feel like it's selfish and naïve to think that life is supposed to be enjoyed.  I'm feeling self destructive right now, but not in a way that I want to do something horrible.  I just want to live as if I'm dead and accomplish the bare minimum halfheartedly until I die in an anticlimactic way.

    Your pointless thoughts & observations

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    On 6/29/2021 at 7:45 PM, luke viia said:

    One of my bosses, a chronically stressed woman, and the one who chooses which apps the company uses for scheduling, team planning and such, almost always picks the ones with vaguely "zen" names. Asana, Bamboo HR, etc. It's wild how well marketing tricks like that actually work. The products themselves are meh at best - Bamboo HR is particularly useless - so it's not like we're using the things on their merits. And after years, I still cannot figure out what a deadline-enforcing, micromanaging clusterfuck of a glorified bulletin board like "asana" could possibly have in common with yoga, even of the vapid variety. Sadly, it would appear we are subjected to this lackluster programming because a spiritually unsatisfied boomer is desperately looking for inner peace. 

    I like this boss of mine - she's overworked for sure, and generally a good person - but she is apparently fully under the spell of the advertising sorcerers. Makes me wonder how tight the capitalist claws have me gripped. I do crave the occasional synthesizer or unnecessary audio gewgaw, but other than that I can't think of many keywords that have this gravitational effect on me. I guess food marketing can get me pretty good - words like "local" and "fair trade" at times cause me to place things in my cart without much further reasoning against the competitors, and I know full well how ambiguous those terms are in general. Hmmm. 

    It's pretty easy to diagnose for me.  If it's found in 7-Eleven then I'll buy it.  I reckon about a third of my income goes to 7-Eleven.

    stupid first world achievements and successes

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    28 minutes ago, yekker said:

    My friend is finally coming around to listening to electronic music. I've always played him stuff in the past and he has never shown much interest. Now he's listening to warp stuff a bit and I'm kinda pushing him in different directions. The main goal is to get him into aphex twin ✌️

    But aphex twin is just there to prepare you for autechre

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    Looking for tips for a trip to WALES!

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    1 hour ago, J3FF3R00 said:

    Thanks so much! 
    :ok::mcgriff::emotawesomepm9::datboi::beer::flower::nyan::music:

    Please keep the recs coming! 
    we also may try to bounce down to Cornwall, Bath and Glastonbury for a few days, as well, so feel free to throw me some tips for spots to check out around there too!

    :wub:

    I hear Carn Marth is beautiful.  Redruth should be a nice spot too.

    stupid first world achievements and successes

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    On 6/18/2021 at 6:21 PM, yekker said:

    I did the glass thing before and left it for about a week. When I picked it up the spider immediately ran and scared the crap out of me.

    Spiders are extremely efficient animals.  They're like sharks in that they use the bare minimum energy to stay alive in between meals, allowing them to chill for unbelievable amounts of time with no food.  That spider has probably gone longer than a week with no food before.  This is part of why spiders are fucking awesome.

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