You joined a cult? What kind of cult was that if you don't mind explaining, sounds like an interesting story. Of course you don't have to say anything, but I'm curiousNot a 'real' cult, but kinda. I don't know if you ever heard about 'transcendential traditionalism' - is based on some books back from the 40s and 50s, written by these guys René Guénon and Julius Evola and that kind of stuff. So there was this little group of traditonalists and I got into it, found it interesting and so on.And this Guénon guy had this theory that the world is getting far from a desired state of Tradition, and blamed renaissance for it. (Now it sounds ridicolous for me, but then I digged it.)
So to be consequent we tried to abbandon a lot of stuff that represented the "modern spirit" - inculding art, so music also.
I didn't really joined the group hereafter, was always more individual, but it took time for me to shook off the impact.
Hmm, okay. Weird what ideas can do