Polytrix
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Yeah hope he/she's sought help. Very troubling. Please talk to someone asap if you are still reading this thread. Help is out there.
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Just to say that suicide is not a solution to anything and never will be under any circumstance. If you want to talk to someone objective about those feelings I used the webchat service here a few times which helped: https://www.thecalmzone.net/help/get-help/ If you've struggled with these thoughts for a long time then I strongly recommend you seeking professional help. Being unemployed is hard but there is so much more value to your life which you don't seem to be considering beyond that and that could be the impact of depression on your mind set. Talk to people who love and care for you about how you feel and if that's too hard talk to an objective professional. You'll get past this, it's temporary. [emoji846]
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On one of the tracks there is this repetitive perc call/response thing going on with what sounds like the buzz of a fly/mosquito....the fly is caught in a cup and then passed around before being released again. I couldn't get that image out of my head.
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So I finally listened to this from start to finish and found it mostly terrifying! In a good way. There are tracks on here that sound to me like aliens operating some kind of bizarre device at the back of a poorly lit warehouse or something. It really feels like I've just witnessed something I wasn't suppose to see/hear. Amazing.
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I'll have to have another listen but it's got the Syro feel to me. Lovely stuff.
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Yeah I love this too! It's got proper Syro vibes to me.
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Yeah I've read about emdr. Very interesting. I honestly feel as though any form of targeted therapy led by a pro which gets you to face entrenched demons and learn new ways of thinking/behaving can only be a good thing. It's definitely not easy though. I'm highly motivated and very open with my therapist to the point of ending up in tears during or after each session personally. In a way, I see that as progress. Gotta hash up some shit before you can understand it.
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Kavinsky I've had similar moments where I've got a bit annoyed that I'm not told exactly what to do but what I've learnt, I think, is that it's a lot more powerful and long lasting for you to identify those techniques yourself. I know where you're coming from though, it's kind of frustrating but stick with it.
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Yeah Godel I see what you mean. I didn't really mean it that way. I mean it more in the sense that (hopefully) offering practical advice/targeted tasks to help people with mental health difficulties can hopefully improve and thus practical advice (not just medication) can be offered better. From a UK perspective it seems to me that access to mental health advice is severely lacking and it needs to be more of an integrated service...I see what you mean though, identifying the specific issues is a seriously difficult thing to do and people need better guidance to do that themselves. I've spent months thinking oh I must have this/that disorder and it took a registered CBT professional 1 hour to absolutely nail down my difficulties and outline an approach to how to help. I've had to go through a lot of loops and other steps to get here. It's so difficult but I hope they can increase the number of mental health professionals to help improve this - like access to a mental health professional as easy as you can get to see your GP. I also think there should be a dedicated like BBC channel like 'BBC Health' or something with loads of quality information just to improve understanding. Just ideas.
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The way you describe 'mental hygiene' is so on the money. I genuinely think in a few years having a regular mental health check and being given informational and tasks to address issues will be as common as being prescribed with meds from your GP for picking up a virus or something.
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Dj chrome update made me lol Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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Totally agree yeah! I wasn't saying you were 'wrong' or anything of that kind so please don't interpret it that way [emoji846] Talking it out is definitely a major part of the process yeah. I've had to discuss quite a lot of hard-truths which are very upsetting and I feel could only have been elicited by a trained, objective professional. My therapist is very strict but friendly at the same time and I really feel you need that as you need to face up to the negative ways of thinking that have dominated/biased your thoughts. Again, I'm only speaking from personal experience and although I've done a lot of reading I really don't consider myself an expert at all so I don't want to come across as a know it all...I'm not. If anyone however is Uk based and wants some advice on how to pursue help on the NHS/ private with regards to seeking professional help I can help a lot with that!
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Godel has absolutely nailed it there too. Totally agree with all of that. It's absolutely astounding to me to start to objectively recognise how much absolutely unhelpful shit flows through my mind on a regular basis. You've got to do a lot more than simply talk about that stuff to alleviate it long term, you've got to learn abilities to cancel out the bs and bring back a sense of balance and in my case, self-worth. I've been on the edge of genuinely wanting to end it all a few times as I simply didn't think I could cope with the way my mind is hard-wired but do you know what, fuck the wiring!
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Brilliant thread. I actually think the somewhat anonymous platform of a forum of this kind really lends itself to sharing open experiences and insights. I'm considering sharing my experience of CBT here when I can in the hope that maybe it can help others. My difficulties have not exclusively been rooted in enduring depression but I had a seriously horrible bout of anxiety/depression which I've worked my way out of but that was more related to low self esteem as a product of certain aspects of my upbringing. At this stage, I would say working with a professional is helping me tremendously and would definitely recommend it to others. Trying to change ingrained cognitive/behavioural patterns is seriously challenging to adapt independently when you have grown used to it as a coping mechanism but we all have massive potential to change and bring a greater sense of balance to our cognitive biases. I feel a lot of this is achieving a greater sense of balance/perspective in life. I'll shut up now but yeah, seeking help has brought me tremendous optimism and hope.
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I knew nothing about this guy until I saw your thread (or atleast I hadn't invested serous time into any of the lps) and I'm throughly enjoying this. It's minimal yet interesting...I didn't realise how stripped back it was going to be in places. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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Yeah I'll watch it again. Never seen anything like it before.
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Yeah, I didn't really know what to make of it. I think I enjoyed it but I spent a lot of it in a permanent state of confusion/bewilderment. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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Can we discuss Upstream Colour? I just finished watching it and I am totally perplexed. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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Ha, I enjoyed it personally! I didn't go into it with high expectations and was quite satisfied. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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Yeah I've seen that! Doesn't that have a famous soundtrack by Tangerine Dream? Shit gets pretty weird in places, deffo worth a watch. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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Thanks again! I've got a lot to be getting on with now! [emoji846]
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Perhaps to try and get it back on track: what I'm seeking is sort of that awe/mystery evoked by scifi imagination. Like the end of Contact basically where it's just beautiful and full of creative ideas - even better if it's got a darker, sinister edge.
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Haha, yeah, it's just kind of a list of interesting sci-fi now!! I appreciate it very much all the same and there's deffo a few I haven't seen here. Seen Primer and really enjoyed that too! :)
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Thank you very much there's a few there I really haven't seen so I'm excited to see them. Contact is one of my all time favourite films so yeah, that's the idea. I want to be amazed/awe inspired by imaginations of other worlds- woooooooooooo
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Thank you!! Keep the recs coming. Yeah I like Black Mirror a lot but I prefer stuff which is otherworldly rather than socio-critical (I'm not sure if that's a word but you get me!) Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
