chim

Funki Porcini is one hell of a way to start off a thread! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OR8iE88xbV4 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=etzhS261aiI

Just finished Black Mesa. I'm ecstatic. Loved, loved, loved it. Pure HL goodness, and better than most new games I've played.

There will always be people who piggyback on their symptoms and blame it on their "depression", just as some people try to blame everything on their "schizophrenia" or "poverty". What is incredibly frustrating is to keep seeing folks lump every person with a mental illness into that category of being weak and unwilling to face the facts. I have a friend who doesn't understand people who shut themselves in because of their depression, because you're supposed to fight it, right? What do you say to something like that? Someone who hasn't truly been thrown into the abyss of their own mind doesn't seem to have any real understanding of it. Because here's the deal with depression as far as I'm concerned: it is completely without mercy. There is no sense of respect for the necessary clarity of perception to understand where and when you're going wrong; it just blinds you to such matters. There are few warning signs and they are mostly realized far too late. It's your own brain kicking you when you're down. And yes, it's pathetic. It's completely pointless. That's what's so fucked up about it. I've had periods where I've been completely unable to leave my apartment, and the idea of there being "collateral benefit" to something like that is a fucking joke. Anyway, that's been a fun part of my adult life. What was important to realize was that I had this idea that my condition was an aberration, something unique, a one-off random thing. Then I looked back in my family tree and found out that most of the males in the back catalogue have killed themselves. I have, like posdit, found a way out through shikantaza zazen meditation, which I have practiced daily for a little over a year now. I will probably practice it until the day I die. Medicine didn't work. And this shit did. The crazy thing is, I would've been happy if I just got a little serenity and balance out of it, the strength to deal with important matters. But then you experience stuff like being unable to sit up straight from laughing at yourself out of pure joy for a full hour. It made me let go of so many issues and learn to love life like a little kid. It does something to my mind that is pure healing. So what's happened is that I've gotten a real perspective on the dark periods that I thought would consume me. I'm just incredibly grateful for that. While I agree with some points on how you have to familiarize yourself with your own tendencies for errors in judgment & perception, I find it utterly pointless to debate it - All I know is I wouldn't wish that kind of stuff on my worst enemy.

go fuck yourself

Why is this thread only about disgusting strange food?

Some great suggestions in this thread. As always, everyone forgets about Vidna Obmana. The River Of Appearance album is the most beautiful and nostalgic thing I have ever heard. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FoVMWoIbE80 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-ufvhNGf1lY

I found the 1Q84 trilogy put together in a neat "little" book, and I remember some vaguely positive post about it in this very thread so I purchased it. Just a few chapters in so we'll see how good it is.

But isn't drugs a part of "living life". Sure, you can live life without drugs, but having these experiences with psychedelics is just another aspect of this experience we call "life". In my mind life is a psychedelic experience and drugs are just an extensions of that, as is meditation and various other peak experiences. I actually agree with you. It's a part of living life. And it's different for every person. But I'm thoroughly disenchanted with people who are chasing one peak psychedelic experience after another to understand the meaning of life. And people who call being alive at a time when they are not under the influence "being sober". I think you should try everything once. And then not try it. And try it again. Whatever tells you the wrong choices that you make and why you shouldn't make them, and the right choices, the good sides... and how they all interplay. I personally prefer meditation more and I'm sad that it's mostly an enormous gap between the two groups. Whenever I enter a discussion of psychedelics versus meditation, I get jumped because a lot of psychonauts seem to think there's no value to such an activity without at least smoking weed. Because Terrence McKenna said so and there's just no use to being sober. Every moment is glorious but we have more of a choice what to do when we don't shove chemicals into our brain. We just don't easily recognize what choices we make. A decent psychedelic dose can probably be a good way to help you see who you are. But it's just telling you that; this is you, don't be afraid. I liked reading about your experiences.

I did acid once with a buddy. We went out in the woods and enjoyed the geometrical patterns. I did cubensis shrooms and time stopped while a friend's dad was driving me and two friends. We stopped at a house where my friends went out to grab some beer, and meanwhile my friend's dad was trying to talk to me. I don't remember what we talked about but I'm sure it was awkward. Anyway, we got to my friends porch and started relaxing. Time kept acting up until I had a very tangible sensation of the meaning of being in the present. Another time I did an heroic amount of Psilocybin shrooms at a party, then tried to go home. Bad idea. I didn't even know my name and I was trying to find my way through the streets. But I got there eventually. As soon as I got down on my bed and put down some music, I went into a black hole and thought I was going to die. Then I let go. I think it was the first time I experienced universal love. For the next week after that, I wanted to travel to India. I don't like connecting drugs and insight. Insight comes from living life. The most important insight I have ever gotten from taking drugs is that you should never eat loads of nutmeg.

I'm not going to approach the kind of depression that psychiatrists call a chemical imbalance. You are a human being and are never broken, you are just the way nature made you. Don't underestimate your ability to change your attention. This includes changing your habits. it's good to start there. Do a lot less drugs, primarily alcohol but also caffeine and nicotine. Maybe change your diet. Then start looking into doing new things with your life. The difficult part is always finding the motivation and energy for doing new things when the old negative habits have sapped you of all of that. The prime pitfall is wanting immediate results, it doesn't work that way. If your depression is worth calling depression, you're gonna struggle with alot of bad shit. Anyway, before you know it you're going to feel alive again. The hard part, then, is not going back into the familiar and negative habits because you feel safer with yourself, because otherwise you're going to go back to feeling shit for long periods. The key here is not looking to just fix your broken brain so you don't have to feel sad, but carefully finding out, through trial and error, how you actually work. What takes you into hopeless mode, what takes you into happy and relaxed mode, and so forth. Most of the time I believe depression is a symptom that you're stuck with self image issues that don't fit the self image that you want, but you're afraid of actually being the person you want to be because the world is a scary place. There's no good, easy answer to that, except that the whole "self vs. other" philosophical conundrum is an illusion, we are all one and there's nothing to worry about. Maybe you won't cure your depression altogether but you might find it easier to cope with.

http://grantbridgestreet.blogspot.se/2011/03/dumb-by-robert-crumb.html http://grantbridgestreet.blogspot.se/2010/07/robert-crumbs-patton.html

Event Horizon

Robert Crumb is a genius.

Fad Bart

I don't mean to sound like a hipster but I can't remember the last time I had a burger. Last monday I bought a pack of onion rings that you cook yourself, and they were quite good even though I did not fry them. I just chucked them in the oven.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I KNEW IT

Zazen is the art of learning to love sitting, doing nothing. Touching that stillness, much of lifes problems become a distant joke.

looks visually great but i still think he's committing the one sin he never should have, i.e "theorizing" on the origins of the xenomorphs and space jockeys. which kind of ruins them as their mystery was half the point.

FUCK WHY DID THEY HAVE TO RUIN THE SPACE JOCKEYS

stuff with alcohol in it

Genius. Also, squarepusher would never make his tracks this loud.

Tropic Thunder

The suits look absolutely retarded... In fact, the whole the movie looks ridiculous. At most it will be a decent popcorn romp like pandorum. I'll enjoy seeing a bunch of people get real disappointed.

Violent Shit

I wanted to read that link but luckily my brain said "GTFO of that website before I melt myself".