Maybe you could get someone to help you 1 on 1 for a month or so to ween yourself off instead of having to go to a hospital and get the dt's or whatever?
I have the dts that's the scary part.... I have seizures, fever, and i'm tachyrdiatic if I don't have alcohol...... I've been struggling for years. I don't know what to do.... =(
I've been fighting it with on/off success for years.......
help..
this is what i think, take it or leave it.
do some research on treatment facilities, outpatient has been proven to be just as effective as inpatient, so you don't necessarily need to go away for a while. don't get railroaded into a treatment center or plan that's not right for you, find the one that you think is going to work for you, that fits your belief system. don't listen to anyone that says that a certain type of treatment (12 step, etc.) is the ONLY way you're going to get and stay sober because it's simply not true.
i've been to inpatient treatment twice, and outpatient several times (all 12-step, all for opium and/or opiates), and treatment can be a mixed bag. i wish i hadn't rushed into it, wish i had done some research first, but me and my wife were desperate, i was in rough shape. most of the people i was in with had been in inpatient rehab 4, 5, 6+ times. 12-step was not the way for me, and i don't believe in it, and don't practice it. but some people are alive because of it.
the most important thing i think , is to BE HONEST WITH YOURSELF. if you're not, you're only hurting you. that for me has been the key this time, i had enough of my own bullshit and was sick of feeling and living a shitty life. i've been sober for almost 4 years now, no alcohol or drugs of any kind, and my i love my life. actually i lied, i had gall bladder surgery, and took 1 vicodin later that day. but i'm in control of my life now.
in my opinion, stephen, you've been full of shit about this in the past. you're in one thread talking about how you're no longer an alcoholic and haven't drank for a while, and meanwhile you're in the "what are you consuming" (or drinking? whatever.) talking up your latest expensive alcohol purchase, or in another talking about what psychedelics you've taken to listen to an album. if you really want out, do it. even if you have to sacrifice your job, so be it. a job is pointless if your dead.
i really didn't want to post all this, but i hate to see someone throw their life away, especially someone so young.
btw, alocoholism/drug addiction isn't a first world problem, it's an all world problem.
this is a rambling mess i know, but hopefully you can take something from it. btw, that's my attitude with respect to treatment as well, take whatever you can from it that you can use or that helps you, and fuck the rest.
this book takes a good, fair look at the state of addiction treatment, at least in the u.s., i don't know what canada is like. she gives some good suggestions:
http://www.amazon.com/Inside-Rehab-Surprising-Addiction-Treatment/dp/0670025224
someone else might come along and say that everything i've written here is bullshit, and i think that would demonstrate how personal addiction is, how everyone reacts to it and treatment differently.
thanks guys for the support
RE the bolded statement. It has been on and off.
For a while there I was in full control and was doing great. I was choosing when or if I wanted to have a few social drinks. It's just begun to be a habit again and I've kind of come off the rails. You've got a lot of good advice here and I definitely appreciate it. Trying to get back on track now! I'm committed to fixing this and getting back in control at whatever costs. Like you said I'm worthless if I'm dead and that's not a path I want to go down, not just for me but obviously it affects other people too if I'm dead or sick etc... no more fucking around for this guy. No more!
I'm not addicted to psychadelics though lol that's a completely different ballgame. =)