How did you change your life?

[LimpyLoo]

 

DMT breathrough. my one and only. This prooved to me that reality is not what we think it is, that theres life after death, that the very notion of being alive or death isnt really define. I saw deities, millions of worlds and galaxy all in 4 dimension (yes 4 dimension).

I've never seen any deity or any other bullshit like that. Personally, I think it's the individual's delusion plus the bandwagon effect. Similar to the placebo effect where if you think you might see gods, then you probably will believe and think so that way when you are tripping.

 

 

I'm amazed that people have positive experiences on DMT.

 

 

I'm way too neurotic to hang out with a giant wisdom-spewing insect god. I think I'd probably throw up and then have nightmares for the rest of my life.

[Guest A/D]

I've never seen any deity or any other bullshit like that. Personally, I think it's the individual's delusion plus the bandwagon effect. Similar to the placebo effect where if you think you might see gods, then you probably will believe and think so that way when you are tripping.

This is similar to the atheist argument on gods. With the requisite bit of condescension. Please think about your own axioms: they are simply the same amount of faith, placed elsewhere.

 

Also, are you forgetting how effective placebos are?

[Danny O Flannagin]

Buying guitar pedals

[Guest pafr]

 

I've never seen any deity or any other bullshit like that. Personally, I think it's the individual's delusion plus the bandwagon effect. Similar to the placebo effect where if you think you might see gods, then you probably will believe and think so that way when you are tripping.

This is similar to the atheist argument on gods. With the requisite bit of condescension. Please think about your own axioms: they are simply the same amount of faith, placed elsewhere.

 

Also, are you forgetting how effective placebos are?

 

I always have to remind people that everything I say is my opinions from what I know. You don't have to agree with my perspective. People are so worried about disagreeing, and I'm not saying I'm always right. Well I guess I shouldn't have used the word 'bullshit.' Then my statement would probably seem more neutral. Seriously, after all these times, my diction still get people, like fucktard. Fucking lol.

[Guest Atom Dowry Firth]

"Work" in a relationship, in music creation terms... The "easy and fun" part of a relationship, is what starts it and what is cherry on top but not the foundation that maintaaaaaaains such goodness. So like when you start off a track, they usually start off bad ass. Like you'll have that awesome beat or awesome melody, and it's like, "FUCK, this track is fucking good." But guess what? You only have a badass 1:35 second intro, and that means shit. You can't get signed with a badass 1:35 second intro, and nobody fucking cares. So this is where FUN+WORK collide, where you have to take the themes you're feeling from that badass 1:35 intro and expand on the concepts to create flow and an experience. This is where in a relationship, the novelty of "funny guy" or "hot ass" wears off, and you are left with secondarily-cool factors to work with. This is where many tracks/relationships fail, because it can get boring. The hard work required here is 100% the reason why so many electronic tracks have good intros, that basically go nowhere (and the listener cries, because intro is so good but shittiness of rest does not make intro a whole track). This is where lazy people make relationships fail, because they don't realize that they have to MAINTAIN it-- good relationships are not served to you.

 

So you're a hard worker and one with your heart, so now you have like 3:52 seconds on your track, but you keep telling yourself you have 4 minutes. No, you only have 3:52, but you're convinced of 4 minutes and will continue listening to this well-crafted 4 minutes for at least 2 hours a day. This is the part of the relationship where true bonding starts to occur, and things are getting fleshed out enough that the experience of a long-term relationship with the other can be imagined more accurately. Initial novelties (intro) are still good, but the rest of experiences (the middle bit of track) are what keep the bond. In a relationship, this is about where it starts to get cool to talk about anal problems or help the other pop a pimple or support the other in their constant farting. So now you have neeeeearly 4 minutes on your track, and this is really starting to get GOOD. The intro is meeerely the beginning of the finally awesome melody bits you wrote, that make you feel like you reinvented Hasty Boom Alert. But the following, this is where it gets TOUGH.....

 

So you've been listening to your near 4 minutes for days (weeks) now, adding like 3 seconds in that period. You are so PROUD and even IMPRESSED of your admittedly awesome creation, but the track is not finished SO IT MEANS NOTHING. Again, muthafuckin' Planet Mu doesn't give a shit about your almost finished track, and nobody else wants to hear your bullshit cuz they will just be left hanging. All you will tell your friends with your unfinished track is "Hey, I'm almost really cool." So in a relationship, this is where problems can come-- this is where there is struggle in moving forward for both, because really, you are both there to ride the cosmic space craft of life together; both navigating the controls simultaneously. This is where you see how much your intro and middle of the track are worth. This is where you prove to yourself and the other, just how much you care. If you cannot finish a track, your song is worthless and your efforts all go to waste. So THIS PART-- this is what separates mediocre relationships from fucking awesome cosmic ultra Jupiter lazer relationships. This is what separates crying IDM fanboyz from dyudez with actual albums. All right- so you've already listened to your near 4 minutes for AT LEAST 15 hours by this point, and YOU KNOW WHAT NEEDS TO BE DONE. YOU KNOOOOOW WHAT NEEDS TO BE DONE. You FUCKING KNOW EXACTLY WHAT NEEDS TO BE DONE. And this is where- STRENGTH OF WILL PERMITTING-... you take that last sip of 10 cups of coffee, put down the weed, close your porn and wash your hands-- this is where, you fucking painfully rock through to the final bitz that make your track worth anything. You lock-in, FOCUS, and after many many many hours.... YOU HAVE COMPLETED YOUR TRACK (which now clocks in at 5:49).

 

FUCK!!! Oh FUCK. Your track is now awesome! You might think that maaaybe some parts need to be remixed or some part needs more reverb, but that is perfectionism and idealism, and NOBODY but you will be able to perceive the difference in subtle changes, cuz you worked so fucking hard on the track-- the main thing anyone will experience is how awesome it is, and two: just how hard you worked on the track. Their pants will be blown off on multiple fronts, and they will listen again, and again, and again. Mike P will listen to it again, and again, and again, and he will ask you for more tracks, because holy shit, you actually had something to show for all your hot shot talk about being IDM. AT THIS POINT, the intro doesn't mean what it used to, the middle doesn't mean what it used to, the end isn't just an end-- EVERY SINGLE PART IS AWESOME BECAUSE THE WHOLE TRACK IS AWESOME. And all that shit that seeeeeemed like HARD FUCKING WORK? Well, it was totally painful, but totally 100% worth it. Your track.... is FUCKING GOOD.

And if you can do that in a relationship, it will be fucking good. All the hard work will not be any easier, but you'll know the value so will not see hurdles as problems. You will see hard times as required struggles, towards something that you know is worth time and effort. If you get this far, everything you thought was the intro/mid/end, will change. Your value for all of it will change. You will be in new territory that you could not have possibly imagined the relationship would be, in the start of it. Both of you- through maintenance effort- have created something new together. You started off as one being with the other, but now, you are ONE. TEAM OF ULTRA.

 

Godspeed.

 

This is beautiful

[Guest pafr]

When you get the blanket thing you can relax, because everything you could ever want or be, you already have and are.

Fucking lol. I've loved my quilt since I can remember. You can only do so much to ignore human conditions, plus I don't think it's healthy at all to do so. Relationships are awesome though, and some of the happiest/best times are during good relationships. They are good at motivating you to achieve and do things in life. I've never been good at managing my emotions during relationships. I think most of my mistakes are from putting too much emotional commitment too fast. And it involves 2 people, so it's more of dance while trying not to step on each others' feet. After so many failures, I'm so afraid of being hurt emotionally again, too many emotional scars, and it's not like those scars can be easily forgotten. You never know how a relationship will be because nobody lives in the future. The best is to enjoy and appreciate the moment together.

 

Also putting labels (date, fling, platonic, gf/bf, friend, coworker, boss, classmates, etc.) on relationships is not as good as without labels, but most people need labels to define what they want from the relationship and how they should behave and their expectations of themselves and the other person involved.

[chenGOD]

 

 

I've never seen any deity or any other bullshit like that. Personally, I think it's the individual's delusion plus the bandwagon effect. Similar to the placebo effect where if you think you might see gods, then you probably will believe and think so that way when you are tripping.

This is similar to the atheist argument on gods. With the requisite bit of condescension. Please think about your own axioms: they are simply the same amount of faith, placed elsewhere.

 

Also, are you forgetting how effective placebos are?

 

I always have to remind people that everything I say is my opinions from what I know. You don't have to agree with my perspective. People are so worried about disagreeing, and I'm not saying I'm always right. Well I guess I shouldn't have used the word 'bullshit.' Then my statement would probably seem more neutral. Seriously, after all these times, my diction still get people, like fucktard. Fucking lol.

 

 

Dude, you are not the first person to have ever used the word fucktard.

Calling someone a "fucking retard" is a really awesome way of expressing your superiority to them.

[ZoeB]

It's worrying that in this day and age, some people (who aren't schizophrenic and don't believe they've personally talked to them and had them talk back with very specific examples) still believe in gods.

[brian trageskin]

It's worrying that in this day and age, some people (who aren't schizophrenic and don't believe they've personally talked to them and had them talk back with very specific examples) still believe in gods.

 

what's worrying about that? also, most believers are monotheists.

[Friendly Foil]

peace 7 just made the best post in watmm history.

[Guest pafr]

 

 

 

I've never seen any deity or any other bullshit like that. Personally, I think it's the individual's delusion plus the bandwagon effect. Similar to the placebo effect where if you think you might see gods, then you probably will believe and think so that way when you are tripping.

This is similar to the atheist argument on gods. With the requisite bit of condescension. Please think about your own axioms: they are simply the same amount of faith, placed elsewhere.

 

Also, are you forgetting how effective placebos are?

 

I always have to remind people that everything I say is my opinions from what I know. You don't have to agree with my perspective. People are so worried about disagreeing, and I'm not saying I'm always right. Well I guess I shouldn't have used the word 'bullshit.' Then my statement would probably seem more neutral. Seriously, after all these times, my diction still get people, like fucktard. Fucking lol.

 

 

Dude, you are not the first person to have ever used the word fucktard.

Calling someone a "fucking retard" is a really awesome way of expressing your superiority to them.

 

When I was young, people always said I was smart. I didn't like that because I really didn't think I was smart. I thought I was normal like everyone else, and there were always smart kids around me too. Different people better than me in different ways. I wasn't #1 in class, but I was the top few. Later in life, I kept on seeing people being stupid in different ways. I'd get frustrated and didn't understand why they were being stupid. Then I realized that people kept on telling me I was smart because they themselves are fucking retarded.

 

When I was young, I didn't understand about statistical sampling and use fuzzy logic to evaluate various things like intelligence.

[Guest A/D]

It's worrying that in this day and age, some people (who aren't schizophrenic and don't believe they've personally talked to them and had them talk back with very specific examples) still believe in gods.

Heh. I personally don't think I do, but I think it's silly (in this day and age) that people think everything is explained or explainable. Take schizophrenia, which you mentioned. Pretty tricky stuff, with some fascinating unexplainable properties.

 

To me, "god" or "science" are equally inadequate catch-alls for the unexplained. There's nothing special about our level of understanding in the modern era that precludes something "supernatural" from becoming commonplace later on.

[Candiru]

Maybe we'll all be reincarnated as each other for eternity. When you die you'll be born as an Aboriginal Tasmanian in the year 1693 and you'll wear marsupial pelts and hunt stuff. But in your past life you were living in a bomb shelter in the year 2058 digging a complex network of tunnels using robots that you find pieces of scattered accross the war-torn landscape

[Guest murphythecat8]

 

DMT breathrough. my one and only. This prooved to me that reality is not what we think it is, that theres life after death, that the very notion of being alive or death isnt really define. I saw deities, millions of worlds and galaxy all in 4 dimension (yes 4 dimension).

I've never seen any deity or any other bullshit like that. Personally, I think it's the individual's delusion plus the bandwagon effect. Similar to the placebo effect where if you think you might see gods, then you probably will believe and think so that way when you are tripping.

lol, you just dont know what you are talking about.

have you even had a breakthrough of DMT. Its not in the realm of "thinking" or "maybe". Its more real then reality, more profound then anything you have ever experienced. I clearly saw thousands of entities. But thats not it, its not just the entities, its the ego death, its the space in which you are transorted. Your room just disappear and this multi layered, 4 dimension, all with colours youve never seen before, much more brighter then you ever saw with your eyes, with gigantic lights, entities, and spaces and worlds, hundreds of things happens similarly and you all know that theres somthing real in what you experience, much more profound then anything you have ever lived. much more weird, alien, true.

 

You cannot explain it with words but lets say that the reality we live in, with all its details, all its sensations, no matter how you describe your room, it will never give a good portrait of your room. A DMT breakthgough is like being catapulted in another dimension, with as much, and honestly much more details then the reality we live in.

 

Of course its a delusion, even the reality is a delusion. you really think reality is like that. that your sense tells you anything about how the reality really looks like?

 

My personal belief about DMT is that it shows your individual mind. The archetypes, aliens, angels, feries (ive seen al that), hindu Gods ( ive seen that too, with the 8 arms and blue), are all reprensetation of your minde.

but, what is your mind?

thats the question, what is your mind, and what is reality? a projection of your mind. Reality lives in your mind, no the other way around.

[Guest murphythecat8]

 

 

DMT breathrough. my one and only. This prooved to me that reality is not what we think it is, that theres life after death, that the very notion of being alive or death isnt really define. I saw deities, millions of worlds and galaxy all in 4 dimension (yes 4 dimension).

I've never seen any deity or any other bullshit like that. Personally, I think it's the individual's delusion plus the bandwagon effect. Similar to the placebo effect where if you think you might see gods, then you probably will believe and think so that way when you are tripping.

 

 

I'm amazed that people have positive experiences on DMT.

 

 

I'm way too neurotic to hang out with a giant wisdom-spewing insect god. I think I'd probably throw up and then have nightmares for the rest of my life.

 

lol

I have enough changa to give me 100 breakthough at my disposal, and one breakthrough was enough. It wasnt a negative experience, its just so profound, so shocking, so disturbing, that I prefer sticking to shrooms and peruvianus torch.

DMT is not fun, is much much much more deeper then fun!!!

Its scary by the sheer power and how much it affects your awareness and consciousness

anyways

[awepittance]

Salvia

peace 7 just made the best post in watmm history.

 

[Guest A/D]

 

 

 

 

DMT breathrough. my one and only. This prooved to me that reality is not what we think it is, that theres life after death, that the very notion of being alive or death isnt really define. I saw deities, millions of worlds and galaxy all in 4 dimension (yes 4 dimension).

I've never seen any deity or any other bullshit like that. Personally, I think it's the individual's delusion plus the bandwagon effect. Similar to the placebo effect where if you think you might see gods, then you probably will believe and think so that way when you are tripping.

lol, you just dont know what you are talking about.

have you even had a breakthrough of DMT. Its not in the realm of "thinking" or "maybe". Its more real then reality, more profound then anything you have ever experienced. I clearly saw thousands of entities. But thats not it, its not just the entities, its the ego death, its the space in which you are transorted. Your room just disappear and this multi layered, 4 dimension, all with colours youve never seen before, much more brighter then you ever saw with your eyes, with gigantic lights, entities, and spaces and worlds, hundreds of things happens similarly and you all know that theres somthing real in what you experience, much more profound then anything you have ever lived. much more weird, alien, true.

 

You cannot explain it with words but lets say that the reality we live in, with all its details, all its sensations, no matter how you describe your room, it will never give a good portrait of your room. A DMT breakthgough is like being catapulted in another dimension, with as much, and honestly much more details then the reality we live in.

 

Of course its a delusion, even the reality is a delusion. you really think reality is like that. that your sense tells you anything about how the reality really looks like?

 

My personal belief about DMT is that it shows your individual mind. The archetypes, aliens, angels, feries (ive seen al that), hindu Gods ( ive seen that too, with the 8 arms and blue), are all reprensetation of your minde.

but, what is your mind?

thats the question, what is your mind, and what is reality? a projection of your mind. Reality lives in your mind, no the other way around.

Drugs are great man, sure. But not everyone gets off on having their brain flopped inside out like a sock. Some people just think about tennis and whatever and are fine.

[Guest pafr]

 

 

DMT breathrough. my one and only. This prooved to me that reality is not what we think it is, that theres life after death, that the very notion of being alive or death isnt really define. I saw deities, millions of worlds and galaxy all in 4 dimension (yes 4 dimension).

I've never seen any deity or any other bullshit like that. Personally, I think it's the individual's delusion plus the bandwagon effect. Similar to the placebo effect where if you think you might see gods, then you probably will believe and think so that way when you are tripping.

lol, you just dont know what you are talking about.

have you even had a breakthrough of DMT. Its not in the realm of "thinking" or "maybe". Its more real then reality, more profound then anything you have ever experienced. I clearly saw thousands of entities. But thats not it, its not just the entities, its the ego death, its the space in which you are transorted. Your room just disappear and this multi layered, 4 dimension, all with colours youve never seen before, much more brighter then you ever saw with your eyes, with gigantic lights, entities, and spaces and worlds, hundreds of things happens similarly and you all know that theres somthing real in what you experience, much more profound then anything you have ever lived. much more weird, alien, true.

 

You cannot explain it with words but lets say that the reality we live in, with all its details, all its sensations, no matter how you describe your room, it will never give a good portrait of your room. A DMT breakthgough is like being catapulted in another dimension, with as much, and honestly much more details then the reality we live in.

 

Of course its a delusion, even the reality is a delusion. you really think reality is like that. that your sense tells you anything about how the reality really looks like?

 

My personal belief about DMT is that it shows your individual mind. The archetypes, aliens, angels, feries (ive seen al that), hindu Gods ( ive seen that too, with the 8 arms and blue), are all reprensetation of your minde.

but, what is your mind?

thats the question, what is your mind, and what is reality? a projection of your mind. Reality lives in your mind, no the other way around.

 

 

Thanks for reiterating exactly what I said.

 

 

 

I've never seen any deity or any other bullshit like that. Personally, I think it's the individual's delusion plus the bandwagon effect. Similar to the placebo effect where if you think you might see gods, then you probably will believe and think so that way when you are tripping.

This is similar to the atheist argument on gods. With the requisite bit of condescension. Please think about your own axioms: they are simply the same amount of faith, placed elsewhere.

 

Also, are you forgetting how effective placebos are?

 

I always have to remind people that everything I say is my opinions from what I know. You don't have to agree with my perspective. People are so worried about disagreeing, and I'm not saying I'm always right. Well I guess I shouldn't have used the word 'bullshit.' Then my statement would probably seem more neutral. Seriously, after all these times, my diction still get people, like fucktard. Fucking lol.

 

[Adieu]

peace 7 just made the best post in watmm history.

 

[fenton]

HELLO RICHARD

[YangYing]

Peace 7, that was beautiful. Subarasikatta.

 

If and when I start my first relationship (yea I'm serious), I will keep your advice in mind as a parable in its likeness to making a badass track.

[Guest pafr]

I guess the same analogy to writing books eh?

[goDel]

So how did I change my life?

 

Having a diary of sorts helps. It's not really a diary, but just throwing stuff on paper which is otherwise just occupying my mental space. It helps to put things in a different perspective and get shit off my mind. And see how much bullshit my mind can generate.

 

It helps to stop worrying endlessly, shove my own bullshit off my chest and actually make decisions and start doing things.

 

Or another thing, having a big fight with my mother and finally understanding how I was raised by what you could call a narcissistic mom. I could be bothered to delve deeper into this pit of crap, but the point is that a good conflict can open your eyes about how you got to where you are. And in my case, it essentially put me back into the drivers seat to be able to regain control over my future again.

[fenton]

yeh i pretty much excommunicated my mum, my life went upwards after that, then she wanted to talk again, so i sorta did, and i can feel things escalating to a massive climax where either one of us will kill ourselves, or both, or each other.

 

 

shame but whaddya whaddya

[goDel]

Yes, talking again results mostly in taking the roller coaster to the guilt mountain. You're either to blame for everything that happened (and her unhappiness). Or, if she understands that wont help getting things back to the way they were, something else outside of her is to blame.

 

A true narcissist is just unable to show an honest sense of self-reflection. Even if she feels truly sorry. Which she probably does, I'd give her that.

 

I grew up with the notion mums were perfect, and every wrong was my responsibility. Mothers and their motherly love were supposed to be these things of divine perfection where they just do everything as a token of their innate love for you. Euhm...no they don't.

 

If you're still struggling, I recommend reading "Toxic Parents" and "Emotional Blackmail". Both by Susan Forward.

 

Personally, I'm currently struggling in the relationships department because of this past. Struggling to stay away from the pitfalls of being a narcissistic jerk myself, or just completely codependent. It has helped to know why and what happened tremendously. But now it is my responsibility to get past it all. Somehow.